FAIL HARD, FAIL BIG, FAIL OFTEN….
Failing is as inevitable as getting wet when it rains. It’s never a fun experience, but it is an experience one will have to go through many times if they’re doing this life shit right. As I’m getting older and becoming more experienced myself, failing isn’t a word that means anything besides the fact that I need to reassess a decision or situation. It means I need to find a different route, try something new. One thing failing will never have the power to do is stop any of passions. It will never stop me from trying. It will never stop me from pursuing a filmmaking career.
Fail is a yield sign, not a u-turn.
Failing publicly is supposed to be this horrible, horrible thing, but I make sure that I do it constantly. Every struggle I write about it and put it on this blog because why not? Was this career supposed to be easy? Was being a 22 year old CEO supposed to come with a guarantee that I’ll make all smooth business decisions? I made a damn film about a failed relationship. Let me make it clear that reeling from those failures were a bitch, but here I am, still living and filmmaking and loving and shit.
One of the reasons why I left school early was because I’m the type of person that needs to experience in order for the lesson to stick. I was the type of kid to stick a fork in the outlet because I needed to feel the electricity shock to know I’m not supposed to do that. My friend calls that “impulsive,” which it is and not at all the best practice, but as much as we can highlight the negative there are very, very good things that come from that as well. I just call it learning, which I love to do.
I’m the quintessential Taurus, bull-headed and all, so I will go down in flames, come back like the phoenix and say lets keep trying new ways until this shit kills me. Nothing is going to keep me from what I believe is destiny. I’m going to keep making films, going to keep pushing until I crack that wall and then I’m going to work harder, fail harder until I’m at a place where I can say I’m truly successful. I’m going to earn every point on the board and if that means there are hard lessons in store then so be it. In that time I’m becoming wiser, making better decisions and getting to a place where those failures are smaller.
I recently put up an Indiegogo page to support my latest film, “SHE,” and I’m going to push it until I earn every dollar of the goal. God forbid I don’t make the goal, then I guess I have to figure out another way to get the film completed, but it’ll get done.
I listen to “Who Gon’ Stop Me?” every day.
I’ll let you know if that question ever gets answered.